Description of Event or Problem · 0
AFTER HAVING ECT (ELECTROCONVULSIVE THERAPY) AND TOLD MY MEMORIES WOULD RETURN DID NOT HAPPEN. I HAVE PERMANENT MEMORIES GONE FOREVER, I'M NO LONGER GOOD AT MATH LIKE I USED TO BE. MY PERSONALITY IS PERMANENTLY CHANGED INTO SOMEONE I WAS NOT BEFORE ECT. I AM NO LONGER OUTGOING. I AM AFRAID OF THINGS THAT I NEVER EXPERIENCED BEFORE ECT. I AM DISABLED AND NOW I FEEL OVERWHELMED ALL THE TIME. I DON'T LIKE INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE LIKE I USED TO. MANY MEMORIES I DO HAVE ARE INCORRECT. ECT LITERALLY CHANGED ME INTO SOMEONE I HATE AND I CAN'T HANDLE LARGE GATHERINGS OF PEOPLE LIKE I USED TO HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH. I DON'T EVEN LIKE BEING AROUND OTHER PEOPLE MOST OF THE TIME. I AM TIRED AND DEVASTATED AND WISH I WAS DEAD. THIS IS ALL A RESULT OF ECT. MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS HAVE ALL TOLD ME THAT I AM NOT THE SAME SINCE HAVING ECT. I CAN'T GET MY LONG-TERM MEMORIES BACK, I AM EXTREMELY RECLUSIVE, AND I AM JUST HOPING TO DIE. ECT IS A TERRIBLE TREATMENT AND NO ONE SHOULD BE TOLD THAT IT DOES NOT AFFECT LONG-TERM MEMORIES, ABILITIES, FRIENDSHIPS, LIFESTYLE, ETC. I WAS 18 YEARS OLD WHEN I RECEIVED ECT THE FIRST TIME. IT DOES PERMANENT DAMAGE TO THE BRAIN! I AM 60 NOW AND HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO KEEP A JOB FOR MOST OF MY LIFE.